Lately I’ve felt stuck in my creative life and it’s been a largely unpleasant experience. I’ve noticed that when I’m not in a routine of spinning, carding or dyeing I tend to get depressed. The more depressed I become, the farther away from living a creative life I will drift which makes me feel even worse.
It’s a vicious cycle, I recommend avoiding it. Perhaps it is the shift in seasons that put me in a bit of a funk. I prefer Fall/Winter weather and lighting because it invigorates me. The hotter it gets as we march towards summer, the less I want to sit with a lap full of wool.
I can’t blame the weather entirely as I really am the only factor that is keeping me from moving forward. I’ve also been frustrated with some of my equipment lately, which leads to additional frustration in regard to looking at things that I covet in regard to a new drum carder or wheel. If I’m being honest with myself, I tend to get it in my head that those items would pull me out of the funk but I also know better, shiny new isn’t the answer.
Instead, I reached out to a group of friends that I trust implicitly and many of them had similar advice. Make time. Do something, anything, even if it’s just a tiny bit each day until it becomes habit again. I’ve done it before, it’s a trusted friend in its own way, and therefore I can do it again.
Also, to be clear, this isn’t about making money, it’s about getting back to what I love to do. Opportunities to make money are always available. The ability to make money would, in theory, lead to the potential for buying a new piece of equipment, but idea also isn’t the case here. I have equipment. Some of it is old, some of it needs almost constant tinkerputzing to make it go, but every piece of it was something that I acquired fair and square. To abandon it now seems rather selfish, actually.
So, tonight, instead of navel gazing until it is time to call it a night and feeling restless and exhausted at the same time, I stepped into the studio, pulled a bag of fiber and sparkles, and after some adjustments and careful operation, put together a couple batts that I then sat down to spin.